Confessions

I started this blog for accountability AND for a place to be gut level honest. What does a person struggling with their weight struggle with daily? What are the hang ups? What are the successes? I haven't done that. I went AWOL instead! So here goes...

I traveled to Atlanta and stayed on target with my eating while there but compromised the workout. I got home and just sort of fell apart.

So here's me being honest.

Yesterday I ate a 1/2 of a cinnamon roll for breakfast. 5 chicken nuggets and a small fry from Chick Fil A for lunch. A cookie at a Christmas event that I was working. 2 small cookies & coffee at my bff's house. 2 slices of pepperoni pizza for dinner. 2 brownie bites after that. OMG! It's ridiculous. I don't even want to know or add up the sugar/carbs/calories. Wednesday & Thursday I did great, Friday was my "flex" day so I had mexican & a cupcake as planned...and then I just BLEW it yesterday. And I knew I was. I'm ashamed to admit it on here.

I'm not going to lie. I probably won't jump back on the wagon today. We have church, quick lunch, a meeting & basketball practice for the youngest, and then a dessert event at church tonight. Somewhere in there, we're squeezing in dinner.

So how about you check on me on Monday? See if I've totally lost my mind jumped ship or if I've jumped back on course?

It's my plan to get back on track so that I feel good about Thanksgiving. I want to eat caramalized onion cornbread dressing, pecan pie, and mashed potatoes with freedom from guilt.

Mondays plan: Insanity workout, paleo eating.

I want to be a runner. It bugs me that I can't seem to stay on course and just do it. My friend/coach, Frank, told me once that I put too much emotion into it and just to be where I'm at. Where I'm at sucks is the beginning, over and over and over, so I'm unemotionally setting a goal to finish the 5k training. Not to mention, we do this fun event every year, the Warrior Dash, in the spring. Last year my Dad was able to beat me. He's 56. SERIOUSLY! Anyway, I'm finding that I can only run outside in the morning right now because it gets dark so early but that's when I do my other workout. SO, I'm gonna just suck it up and do it on the treadmill instead.

Ask me. Ask me if I'm working out and staying on track with my eating. I'll be embarrassed to tell you no so I'll do it.