Another thought

Conviction rarely comes apart from God's word for me. You can tell me why something is right or wrong or why I need to do this or that but I don't prescribe to it unless I'm convicted by the Holy Spirit. That usually, but not always, happens when I'm having my priority time. I'm really pretty stubborn and MUST do my own research before I accept anything. I'm sure it frustrates most of the people that love me.

This weight thing has been a battle for me for many years. Really, since I became a believer. And that's sad. You see, I'm an idol worshiper and my idol is my own pleasure. I want to "feel" good and so before eating it was drugs & alcohol. Before that it was sex. Now, it's food. I'm learning to be honest with myself about it and not allow it to be the "acceptable" sin. I'm at war friends. And the battle is about much more than weight, it truly is a sin issue in my life.

I've been covicted over and over again in my priority time about depending on God alone. About idol worship. About obedience. But in this area, I haven't listened. I've talked about it, I've given half hearted attempts but my desire to do what I want, when I want has trumped. Well, you might say then, that's not true conviction. No, it's disobedience. Maybe I should have named the blog Ditch the Disobedience. Anyway, I know God loves me like crazy and I know he loves everything about me. But I also know that it breaks His heart when I run to something other than Him. Because what He truly wants for me is His best, FREEDOM.

Now, why am I posting this today? Because as much as I like to be funny or real or whatever, I can't be real without speaking about my love for the Lord and my desire to be a reflection of his glory. Being dependent on a substance, including food, does not bring him glory. period. the end.